i used to think i was pretty i thought of myself as the cutest girl in the class (my class wasn't that big) i wanted to be a model/teacher but more of a model at the time i'd look in the mirror adoring the way i looked and smiling all joyful 5 boys liked me at once and i had a guy friend say that i was everything that a guy would ever want. i thought those two things were a really big deal ^ then you came, you were the new kid i had a crush on you and you knew it because my friend exposed me. what a friend eh? you liked me i liked you lalala in grade 5 and 6 for a short period i remember calling you and having you call me at night, you'd hang up before 9 because that was your bedtime. the whole you liking me thing kind of started dying down you started liking my BEST FRIEND you guys did become a little thing and it hurt me. you'd calling me talking about how great she was and every flawless detail about her she didn't really like you. she was being nice to you. she fell for you after you guys broke up i can tell you that but every phone call about her hurt me
i remember we had a circle at recess with me you and 5 of my friends i was nice and i gave everyone a 5 and you a 10 out of ten
you gave me a 2.5 the lowest out of everyone that you rated you also called me ugly which i've never been called before. i remember running home crying RIGHT after school i cried in the bathroom and in the shower and i cried myself to sleep.
from that day on, i haven't looked in the mirror the same as i did before.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011, 4:57 PM